Hey Ho!!! "Back to School" Week fast approachin!!!!

Just one week to go before the "BACK TO SCHOOL" Monday finally arrives. Some may wonder, "Finally?" But to be honest 1.25 months of summer holidays was not easy to spend. Boredom was the defining characteristic of this summer holiday for me. As much as the summer heat is turning out unbearable for me, so is this boredom. Oh dear, i am as excited as a a kid waiting on the railway platform for his first train journey or something alike. Sorry, if the simile was not upto the mark.But the bottom-line is that, as far as i can remember, i have never been as excited for "Back To School" week as I am this time. But why?

I spared a moment to think why. Seriously? 1.25 months of summer vacs seeming so long that i am bored to death? Then somewhat obnoxiously, something struck my head. O dear, this is my last summer vacs of school life( hopefully :P .) And instantaneously, an infinite long chain of thoughts started to occupy my mind which nowadays disturbs me time and again. "By this time next year, i will be searching for a college....Competition is too stiff...oh dear, projects left and am already into the last week of summer vacs...." Suddenly, this summer vac seems too short and i feel like instantaneously involving myself in a horde of activities so that by the end of this week, i can literally force these thoughts into the backseat for quite some time.

It is quite obvious that the sleeping hours for an individual is the most peaceful time that a person can get in his/her busy schedule of 24 hours. But for me, it is something different. I dread it. No, not the time that i actually take a nap, but the gap between the time i get into my bed until i finally fall asleep. That is the time which brings tons of unwanted thoughts into my mind. It seems as if all the uncertainties, troubles and problems of life find this the sweetest time to penetrate my mind and hover round there. In fact, now i have developed a queer way of asserting whether it was a "day well spent?" If some day, i am lucky enough to prevent these unwanted thoughts from penetrating my head , then i can heave a sigh of relief believing that indeed, it was a day well spent. And it does work out well. :D

 But unfortunately, with passing time, i am getting less "day well spent" signals. Everything is just piling up around me. Be it expectations from others, my studies, the things that i have planned to do in the fields that i am passionate about, everything is just piling up. And at the end of the day, all that i blabber time and again is:

"Shouldn't i have some time for myself too? Some time when i can enjoy myself, mix with my peers, share my problems with them?"

I sometimes wonder about the lives of those people who carries the tag of "brought up in the laps of nature" tag with them. Perhaps, such a lifestyle would have been much better than this closed fast paced chaotic lifestyle. And this is what makes schooling such an integral part of my life. It gives me the energy to keep fighting, the caring teachers helps me stay motivated and my loving friends are those with whom i can share  and talk about my interests and passions and also share some of my deeper thoughts and feelings :P . Thus, schooling to me is not just about carrying a fully loaded(and sometimes overloaded -_- ) bag pack to a considerable distance via a motor vehicle, dropping it down, occasional scribbling of notes and a break officially designated for munching our food :P . To me, schooling is an integral part of life that can't be replaced by anything else. And because am nearing the end of that wonderful eventful journey, i am looking forward to it with unparalleled zeal. Hope it brings to me a hoard of wonderful memories that i can always cherish! :)
Cheers,
Rwik!